[It's not common to see Hans so pensive, but he suspects he's seen it in a genuine way more than most other people, at this point. And it's not something Ferran is displeased to see in any way. He lets out a chuckle, not able to help himself from teasing the other man at least a little.]
Feeling self conscious?
[He leans forward to give Hans another kiss, though this time it's just a soft peck on the cheek.]
If he disappoints Ferran in this way, it sort of feels like he's disappointing him as his actual self, which isn't a great feeling to have. Is that what being vulnerable to another person feels like? Hans almost grimaces at the thought, but he manages to keep it in, especially as the young man leans forward to give him another kiss, if just a small one this time.]
Yes, that does answer it.
[He's... grateful? Even if he still has a lot of feelings to work out. If to distract himself, Hans starts to drink the tea that Ferran made for him, because that's something he can enjoy without question.]
[Allowing yourself to be vulnerable is a big step, Hans!! Ferran is so proud.
A small smile lingers on his face as Hans turns his attention to his drink, and Ferran himself sits back to do the same. After taking a slow sip and a moment of quiet thought:]
[Hans peers at Ferran while drinking his tea, and while he doesn't say anything at first, it's clear that his comment is something he's considering. Usually, when he 'surprises' someone, it's not a good thing, but the small smile on his face speaks otherwise.]
That I asked to kiss you? [He has a couple of other ideas, but he wants to hear Ferran say it himself.]
[It's not that Ferran thinks he's completely repulsive in that way; he's been in relationships, had people care about him when they shouldn't—and at this point he knows Hans at least has some attachment to him, after all the time they've spent together. But that particular kind of request... well, it changes things. Or at least, it changes how Ferran thinks about it. He shifts to tuck one ankle behind the other, speaking honestly without any real hesitation.]
It's not something I thought you'd be interested in just for the sake of doing it.
[The prince might try to bluff, but Ferran is fairly confident there's no underlying motive here—especially with that reaction a moment ago. Hans is good at feigning certain things, but even if he were playing up the shy facade, what would he get out of that here and now?]
I guess I've still got a lot to learn about you, huh?
[It's a slightly vague answer, and Hans doesn't plan on elaborating further, mostly because he really doesn't know himself. Well, it's more like there are multiple reasons why he wanted to kiss Ferran, but he still has reservations talking about it. At least Ferran seems to be understanding, something that he can appreciate. Maybe that's why he's able to at least relax around him.
Even when he should be fully judged, Ferran is usually patient with him.]
Still surprising you even after a year. [He's back to smiling and teasing Ferran, because that's natural and easy.] Guess that means you always have to keep your guard up around me.
[Whether that's the full truth or not, Ferran won't probe further for now. He doesn't see this as a situation where he feels like he has to push Hans for answers; honestly, he's content whatever the reasoning.
He lets out a simple heh, bringing his mug close again to appreciate the warmth.]
Not much chance of that at this point. [There's an echo of Hans's sly humor in his own gaze.] Not that that's a surprise to you, I bet.
Just further affirmation that I can manipulate you to do whatever I want.
[Take advantage of Ferran? He's probably already been doing that, just not in a blunt 'betray you' way, and more of... something else. Maybe it's not taking advantage in the first place, but he's still working through Feelings and everything. It's hard being genuine with others.]
[There's a few more laughs at the idea of Hans manipulating him to do anything. Could the man make him feel a certain way? Absolutely. Maybe Hans could even convince him of this or that. But he feels self-assured enough to say he wouldn't let the prince outright use him for something he wasn't fine with already, even if Hans was ever actually up to anything.]
Unlikely. [To either of those things.] Are you worried?
[Hans has seen Ferran at his most sinister on the moon, after all.]
[Maybe there might be something to worry about if that guardian of his arrived in this dream, but that's not a problem worth thinking about right now. He'll deal with it if it happens and maybe get all of Ferran's friends to help; it seems like he has a lot of them. Of course, there was that whole moon incident, but... he feels like he can handle Ferran one-on-one.
...Probably. It's fine.
He just rolls his eyes and drinks from his tea.]
You're supposed to tell me all your terrible secrets anyway.
With how many you have already, you want more of them?
[Possibly Hans is just joking, with how the conversation has turned to mutual teasing, but there's probably something sincere in the sentiment. Does it make Hans feel better to know all the horrible things Ferran has done and gone through? He wonders internally, but externally:]
I didn't know you were so into me. [does hans regret this yet]
[He won't dignify that last comment with an actual response. At least, he doesn't plan on directly addressing it, he much prefers the roundabout way of answering questions. He smiles over his cup at Ferran, his next words coming out a little sharper, but there's still a teasing undertone.]
Isn't that what being in a relationship entails, Ferran? Knowing our darkest secrets?
[And Ferran already knows his biggest crime. Him and a few other people at this point, but that's how things have worked out. He doesn't have any more betrayals and attempted murders to talk about either.]
[He's about to make a scathing remark about Hans's experiences with relationships when it hits him just what that statement means about him and what Hans apparently wants. Strangely enough, that's the idea that brings some color to his face as he turns his eyes away, though the pleased smile remains. Trying something physical is one thing, and he would have no issue with being Hans's go-to with no strings attached, but being together? That feels different, and the soft glimmer in the air around him makes it obvious.]
Heh...
[But Ferran does have a number of other secrets that aren't pleasant. He ignores the figure he can sense in the corner of the room. It's only a matter of time.]
[Hans doesn't have much time to revel in Ferran's flustered expression, not when the weight of his own words fully hits him. Oh. Oh. So. That's why he looks so pleased, because he's actually sort of admitted that they're in a relationship of sorts now. Maybe not fully confirmed and he probably still has time to back out from this, to prevent any misunderstandings or feelings, but he doesn't take it back yet.
...
Being in a relationship would help him learn more about Ferran, but also, he really doesn't need to learn his darkest secrets. It's probably of no real benefit to Hans, so why? Is this something he really wants?]
I said what I said, didn't I?
[He doesn't have too much to lose, right? Ferran knows what he's getting into as well.]
[Not even that shadow from his mind can ruin the moment; its presence means nothing in the face of the apparent confirmation. Ferran chuckles quietly, and he can see no reason to hold back the grin on his face.]
You should prepare yourself, then. I've still got a lot to share. [He sits up again to give Hans another peck on the cheek.] And maybe we'll make some new secrets together?
[...It's strange to think that between the two of them, Ferran is the one with more secrets. Hans is sort of used to being the person with hidden atrocities that people need to navigate, and now it looks like he's the one on that end. Or maybe Ferran is just exaggerating whatever's happened to him.
Although, Hans doesn't think it's that simple.
It's something to keep in mind, but he pushes those thoughts away, especially as Ferran sits up to give him another kiss on his cheek. A smile appears on Hans's face, appreciating the attention at least.]
I'm certain that we will. Hardly anything's more tantalizing than secrets kept between two people.
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Feeling self conscious?
[He leans forward to give Hans another kiss, though this time it's just a soft peck on the cheek.]
Maybe that answers your question.
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If he disappoints Ferran in this way, it sort of feels like he's disappointing him as his actual self, which isn't a great feeling to have. Is that what being vulnerable to another person feels like? Hans almost grimaces at the thought, but he manages to keep it in, especially as the young man leans forward to give him another kiss, if just a small one this time.]
Yes, that does answer it.
[He's... grateful? Even if he still has a lot of feelings to work out. If to distract himself, Hans starts to drink the tea that Ferran made for him, because that's something he can enjoy without question.]
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A small smile lingers on his face as Hans turns his attention to his drink, and Ferran himself sits back to do the same. After taking a slow sip and a moment of quiet thought:]
... you really surprised me, you know.
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That I asked to kiss you? [He has a couple of other ideas, but he wants to hear Ferran say it himself.]
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[It's not that Ferran thinks he's completely repulsive in that way; he's been in relationships, had people care about him when they shouldn't—and at this point he knows Hans at least has some attachment to him, after all the time they've spent together. But that particular kind of request... well, it changes things. Or at least, it changes how Ferran thinks about it. He shifts to tuck one ankle behind the other, speaking honestly without any real hesitation.]
It's not something I thought you'd be interested in just for the sake of doing it.
[The prince might try to bluff, but Ferran is fairly confident there's no underlying motive here—especially with that reaction a moment ago. Hans is good at feigning certain things, but even if he were playing up the shy facade, what would he get out of that here and now?]
I guess I've still got a lot to learn about you, huh?
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[It's a slightly vague answer, and Hans doesn't plan on elaborating further, mostly because he really doesn't know himself. Well, it's more like there are multiple reasons why he wanted to kiss Ferran, but he still has reservations talking about it. At least Ferran seems to be understanding, something that he can appreciate. Maybe that's why he's able to at least relax around him.
Even when he should be fully judged, Ferran is usually patient with him.]
Still surprising you even after a year. [He's back to smiling and teasing Ferran, because that's natural and easy.] Guess that means you always have to keep your guard up around me.
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He lets out a simple heh, bringing his mug close again to appreciate the warmth.]
Not much chance of that at this point. [There's an echo of Hans's sly humor in his own gaze.] Not that that's a surprise to you, I bet.
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[Take advantage of Ferran? He's probably already been doing that, just not in a blunt 'betray you' way, and more of... something else. Maybe it's not taking advantage in the first place, but he's still working through Feelings and everything. It's hard being genuine with others.]
Ever plan on turning the tables on me?
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Unlikely. [To either of those things.] Are you worried?
[Hans has seen Ferran at his most sinister on the moon, after all.]
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[Maybe there might be something to worry about if that guardian of his arrived in this dream, but that's not a problem worth thinking about right now. He'll deal with it if it happens and maybe get all of Ferran's friends to help; it seems like he has a lot of them. Of course, there was that whole moon incident, but... he feels like he can handle Ferran one-on-one.
...Probably. It's fine.
He just rolls his eyes and drinks from his tea.]
You're supposed to tell me all your terrible secrets anyway.
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With how many you have already, you want more of them?
[Possibly Hans is just joking, with how the conversation has turned to mutual teasing, but there's probably something sincere in the sentiment. Does it make Hans feel better to know all the horrible things Ferran has done and gone through? He wonders internally, but externally:]
I didn't know you were so into me. [does hans regret this yet]
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Isn't that what being in a relationship entails, Ferran? Knowing our darkest secrets?
[And Ferran already knows his biggest crime. Him and a few other people at this point, but that's how things have worked out. He doesn't have any more betrayals and attempted murders to talk about either.]
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Heh...
[But Ferran does have a number of other secrets that aren't pleasant. He ignores the figure he can sense in the corner of the room. It's only a matter of time.]
Only if you want it to be.
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...
Being in a relationship would help him learn more about Ferran, but also, he really doesn't need to learn his darkest secrets. It's probably of no real benefit to Hans, so why? Is this something he really wants?]
I said what I said, didn't I?
[He doesn't have too much to lose, right? Ferran knows what he's getting into as well.]
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You should prepare yourself, then. I've still got a lot to share. [He sits up again to give Hans another peck on the cheek.] And maybe we'll make some new secrets together?
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Although, Hans doesn't think it's that simple.
It's something to keep in mind, but he pushes those thoughts away, especially as Ferran sits up to give him another kiss on his cheek. A smile appears on Hans's face, appreciating the attention at least.]
I'm certain that we will. Hardly anything's more tantalizing than secrets kept between two people.